"do yu...do yu see that star? right over there...to the left?", he whispered, grabbing her hand as they sat together on the blanket in the grass, staring at the sky.

"wait...which one is it...?", she asked puzzled.

"the second one..on the far left...closest to the moon...do yu see it now?", he asked, pulling her to him as they lie down; her resting on his shoulder.

"oh..i see it! so whats so special about THAT star, baby?", she asked, still puzzled.

"its our star...has been for over a year now...we've been together exactly one year,two months, and twenty-six days..Look, Lily...i love yu...but...i cant be with yu anyomre...yu're too emotional...to clingy...and besides...i met someone new...someone...exciting...", he said as he sat up.



the flashback ends and the girl is thrust back to reality...

"im not good enough for ANYONE, am i?!", she screams at the teddy bear
in her arms. the room around her seems to be spinning as she drags on towards the bed; throwing herslef onto it.

"what did i do wrong. Teddy? why doesnt he want me anymore?", she whispers,laying face down in the bed. moments pass as she softly cries to herself, tightly clutching the ragged bear.

calmly, she pulls herself up...dragging herself to the corner...

rocking..back and forth...back and forth...

she hugs her teddy bear tighter as she pulls the razor out from the pocket of her dress...

"here wego again...Father, give me strength...please take me this time...", she whispered as she dug the razor inside of her left wrist...slowly, and ever so gently, she pulls the blade up her arm...

as the blood flows, itr stains her beautiful skin..her ragged dolland aged white dress...the poor girl clutches her only friend tightly as she says her last prayer...

"forgive me Father, for i have sinned....."